I will make sure you are a happy girl tomorrow rather than a sad one, even though you feel you can't stomach the feeling of getting up tomorrow. But I believe in you.

I'll be taking care of you, dear. Let you rest tonight and I'll make sure you're free of the pain lingering on. I hate to see you washed in sadness and anger, and the way you take it out on your skin.

i feel like throwing up. im logging off of everything except on here. its s afe in here

i wish i had those berries they have in hunger games, then i'd be less of a [censored] doing this

okay, i'll split myself open some. then see if i have the balls to od.

maybe if i cut myself first, it'll do the trick. then i'll be less scared to pop a couple of pills in my mouth

im scared. i know ive been suicidal for a long time, but i didn't want to go out this early.

i only got one choice but to od tonight or before the year ends.

ah right, the b word censors. oopsie daisy

he was never good for you. never good for us. he's the reason why we coexist with you. you need to find someone who loves you for you and doesn't groom you to their standards. hell, you can't even wear open toe heels now because you feel disgusted with the way you consented to some of those pictures. you cry scrolling past them. yet all he says is "awwwh, what a shame, now take 20 more pictures since i claim they're sexy but can't cum in enough time". what a [censored] i'll kill you off to make sure he never has you. we will find you someone who values you. someone who treats you well. someone who doesn't treat you like a goddamn american dream. i hate him I HATE HIM HES SUCH A FUCKING [censored]

maybe it is your fault at the end of the day like he claims. because you didn't say no it's all your fault. because you said maybe it meant yes. you stupid fucking slut, you can't stop crying from my words. you're now realizing the truth. he put the blame onto YOU. for not stopping COERCION. for once ill agree with you, he's stupid as FUCK. grooming a 14 year old girl, getting a 15 year old girl pregnant, and can't be loyal to him while you must keep your chastity for him? you aren't a concubine. you're a teenage girl. wake the fuck up before i do and split you open to make you get up, 2023 a11i3.

why fight for anyone at all if no one wants you at the end of the day? yes, you most definitely have it easier than others, but it doesn't mean your friendships are automatically golden. maybe they're all faking their care for you. maybe the hornet was right about you. all because of something you were coerced to do, you live a life of sin. you're a wicked witch now, which means you're useless to those pests who desire your body. now no one will love you, but at least you won't be manipulated no longer. but you feel discarded, expired, dead even.

i wish i could appreciate the world as i once did, but ive also been proven by the world that it can be a hateful place. i want to experience love without feeling the need to offer up my body. i wish girls who are younger than i weren't meddled with by monsters. i hate being a magical girl. what is worth fighting for anymore?

there's so many thoughts in my head telling me to do it and not to do it. its an aching feeling inside my chest. i want it stop, but the only way to make it is by feeding it whole.

would anyone actually miss me if i was gone?